this is just.uggh

even a girl at my school is a model. she looks like crap in person, but when shes dolled up, she looks good. shes a size 2!

this is really annoying.
my goal: 20lbs in 4weeks,
today: day 5. i was supposed to have dropped 5 lbs, have i?NO. because i binged HORRIBLY on thursday. so yesterday i was .2kgs more than i started. i worked hard ysterday and that pound that i gained on thursday. so basically,ive only lost a pound in a week-which is= healthy,but not my goal. but week one is NOT over. today i saturday, i have until monday to loose 5 lbs. the only way is to either:
-have a net intake of 51cals a day
OR
-fast for 2 days -which is impossible for me.

so half of the day, ill live of of lemon water.

BUT
i just ate 2 cookies(410 cals each) and a plum (30 cals-YUM!)
puts me at 440cals. but ill haning out with a friend so ill be active and burn it.
ill try to live off of plums since theyre so low cal and tasty

WISH ME LUCK*