Challenge post 3

yesterday 70.8kgs, this morning 70.2

H(heaviest)W: 185
LW: 148

CW:154.4
gw1: 155[12/27]
gw2:150
gw3:145
gw4:140
gw5:135
GW:130

72[12/25]

71[12/26]

70[12/27]

69

68

67

had 2 donuts, icecream, and a bit of other stuff...hopefully it wont hurt me too much. did a lot of walking

Challenge post 2

yesterday 72kgs, this morning 70.8

H(heaviest)W: 185
LW: 148

CW:158
gw1: 155
gw2:150
gw3:145
gw4:140
gw5:135
GW:130

72[12/25]

71[12/26]

70

69

68

67

Challenge post 1, the start

H(heaviest)W: 185
LW: 148

CW:158
gw1: 155
gw2:150
gw3:145
gw4:140
gw5:135
GW:130

posting that everyday to keep my self updated

Strictness, hopefully

Today is christmas, 12/25.

Ate today, cant even tell you what.

im fatter than ever, like suddenly i gained a shitload of weight.

i think im 72 kgs..

so by next friday, im working my ass off to hit 67 kgs, at the least.

I drink like 4 cups of tea a day.

Today i had a cup of tea, then ran and burned 230 cals.

About to do 100 sit ups

and maybe whatever I can think of.

This is the start.

158.4 lbs to 147.4 lbs in a big jump,

and i doubt ill even make it.

I think id make it to only 70kgs,, 154 lbs.

unacceptable.

worked out

ran till i burned 180 cals yesterday

ran till i burned 300 cals today

faileddd

somehow I GAINED 10LBS

challenge: reach mini goal weights!

went on a liquid fast yesterday with my ana buddy

Because we both seriously needed it.

She did better than me, she stuck to it.

On the other hand, i didnt. I wasnt hungry, but i needed the taste of food in my mouth :/ so I had water, lemonade, misou soup, a few crackers and a few pieces of orange chicken.

Start 69.8kgs

today 69.4 kgs

.88lbs lost.

I cant believe that right before school, i gained all the weight that i lost back.

I want to be at least 67 kgs, very soon.

Today:

a few pieces of orange chicken

about 1 cup of strawberry icecream

thats it so far.

ill be drinking alot of misou soup today

todays foods

coffee,

cherries

sushi

2 gyouza

110 cal yogurt

i went from 66.8kgs to 68 somehow, i have no idea how.

id like to be in the 50 kgs area..

losing weight!

im 66.8kgs now! thats 146.96kbs!

since i failed today

Sundays ill be my eat days.

soo

yesterday,i went form 67.6kgs to 68.2.

i think if i dont eat anything else today, tomorrow ill reach 67.6 again. then 66.8 the next day.

i just ate half a chocolate mousse cake, 150-230 cals? im not sure. around there.

I dont want anything else today.

seriously.

feeling bad

because i binged today, and i wasnt even hungry

cheetos,icecream,pizza, wtf

everyday needs to be a fast/attempted fast

im just so tempted by taste

i wanted to be 66kgs by tomorrow, but thats not going to happen.

ill see my horrid weight tomorrow. and ill aim to be 66kgs by maybe wednesday if its not too bad

Progress and shame

today is thursday.

from last wedneseday to now, i have lost 7lbs, AMAZING!!

however, just now, i ate a medium slice of pizza-its 11pm. awful, stupid me.

this morning i was 67.6kgs

this afternoon i was 67.2 kg

then a had a small portion of grapes, and then the pizza. and like 2 bottles or water. now im

68.4kgs

OVER2LBS WTF.

but most of that is more than likely the water, and i think the pizza was only like .2-.4kgs ?

i wish i couldnt smell food, i havnt been hungry AT ALL, i cant remember the last time i was hungry. i just love the smell of food.

i wanted to be atleaest 66.4kgs by tomorrow,

but i dont think that'll happen.

Well see.

Good progress

Im on my 3rd day of fasting.
i have been taking nothing in but soda (not too much though), and yesterday i had to eat movie popcorn with my friend.
I started my full fasts on monday,
monday: 151.4lbs
tues: 149.2
wed:148.3

wtf, only 3pounds? maybe its not waterweight though.. last time i fasted for one day and i lost 3lbs, and that was probably mostly waterweight.

this fasting hasnt been hard. i got depressed after my boyfriend dumped me.

fast,yay

day 0=69.8 kgs wed
day 1= 68.4kgs thurs
day2[binge]=68.6kgs

Got many plans this weekend, involving much food.
Restarting fast on Monday.

I wanted to cry when I saw the scale say "68.4", I was so happy!

crazy

for the past week, i have literally consumed nothing but cake, cookies, and cupcakes. Really.

And i haven't gained.
I dont know why or how. My jeans are looser now, but the scale says i haven't lost weight.

why cant i be perfect? i have the potential, but not the power.

yess

im in the 69kgs now,
i want to be under 69kgs by sunday.
i want to be 5 dress sizes smaller.

i NEED to lose this fat.

i think i raised my metabolism

so ive been working on it,eating small meals often
ive been making my own food.
but for the past two days,ive had whatever i wanted,and havnt gained
like 2nights ago, i had a taco for breakfast, a crunch wrap supreme and another taco(both from taco bell).

lastnight, i had 2 mini hamburgers and alot of chips and soda-and i still havnt gained.
im at 70kgs, so i havnt lost any weight. awful.

i had a dream, that i was looking in the mirro and my mom goes(btw,she has anamia in real life) "you havnt lost any weight". i go "i know". (shes a size 0-3 in real life now, she used to be a 13). she goes "See, im skinny. its because i dont eat. isnt it obvious?" and walks away.

that was my first weight dream

Reasons why i want to be Skinny

1) my face wont be as fat
2) my eyes will look bigger
3) i will look good in all and any clothes
4) i will be able to model, im already tall enough!
5) i could be a 5 if i really tried!
6)my arms wont jiggle
7) my mom wont call me fat anymore
8) i will be more approachable and less scary looking
9)ill be the definition of hot
10) more guys will want to date me
11)i wont have fat thighs
12)people will point at me and say "wow she lost alot of weight!"
13) people will stare because i look good, not because im fat
14)my face wont be wide when i lay down
15) i will be ELITE.
16) i will be confident
17) people will compliment me
18) people will notice me for my beauty, not fat
19)ill be cute, all the time
20) ill be happier, satisfied
21) i could wear shorts
22) Because eating makes me miserable
23)Tall people look better skinnier
24)Tired of looking at the fat me in the mirror.
25) Need a social life and it is only obtained by being thin
26)tired of looking at skinny girls
27) fashion is made for skinny people
28) manicans are perfect. manicans are not fat
29)skinny clothes look so much better than fat clothes
30)Because being thin makes you prettier
31)I want to have control, I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul.
32)i will look like an angle
33)people wont tease me in class
34) I'll be able to run faster without all that extra weight holding you back


adding more soon

woke up and..

wow,suddenly im 70.6kgs, HOW?
i have no clue.

today: yogurt+cereal+smoothie
lunch: dragonroll sushi
dinner: lean cuisine pasta
snack: yogurt, fiber bar
exercise: grocery shopping for an hour

NET CAL=10,40

omfg.

I told my texting buddy id be eating healthier+mix in diets, since diets alone dont work for me.
i wanted to do a friendly comp. but she cant right now, not until Wednesday day.

I woke up today, my stomach looked great, and my thighs looked awful. my stomach has been flat for years, but my thighs=huge. im a jean size 9, but im not overflowing with fat like other girls who are size 9

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snack: yogurt=100cals and another smoothie

cabbage soup diet, day 4

yesterday:70.2
today:69.8

today is: soup+bananas+skim milk

but i didnt have skim milk or bananas in my house.

breakfast: soup + yogurt
snack: plum
lunch:pasta, frittata , smoothie
dinner: popsickle, salad
excercise: walking(-139)

total= 703

wondering if i should have another smoothie(fruits and ice, no milk etc)

as for the cabbage soup diet, not that i hate it(i like cabbage soup) but having it all the time is a real drag

thinspiration pics

Cabbage soup diet, day 2

today: veggie+soup day, big baked potato, no junk
yesterday:71.okg
today: 69.6kg
I LOST 3.08LBS IN ONE DAY!!!

butttttt
todays:
breakfast: mango + soup
snack: small/medium carrot
lunch: small/medium carrot + about 1/4cup of rice
dinner: potato chips+french onion dip+2 chocolate cookies+ rice mixed with beef stew. (1cup)(C&Sed the beef)

calorie intake:
b: 157
s: 25
l:85
d:480
exercise:-139

total=608calories.

Not as awful as i thought, but the chips=really bad idea.
I weighed myself when i got home, i was still 69.6. (before "dinner"
damn it! sooo i might be 69.4-70kg tomorrow. i hope this all works out.

Its 5:48pm right now, and im 70.2kgs. Not bad, since i ate chips,rice,beef stew and cookies, its only a .6kg gain, which is 1.32lbs. I usually sleep .2-.8kgs off. Not super worried about it

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7:30pm, just binged on more beefstew+rice. maybe a whole cups worth. damn it.

since day 6 is supposed to be a beef+veggie+soup day, ill replace it with soup+fruit day to make up for it.

Cabbage soup diet, day 1

Alright, long story short. ive been working out alot, but my scale says i gained. hoping thats muscle, not fat.
I was 71kgs this morning.
day 1= cabbage soup+fruits. no junk
Today i had:

Cabbage soup+mango (Breakfast)
Apples+grapes (snack)
plum+ small intake of chicken
cabbage soup+mango+3strawberries+ 1/4 of mcflurry,+ small intake of pork
burned 139 cals from walking.

NET INTAKE=809-139=670 cals

when i got home (after my "dinner"), i was 70.2kgs :o
hopefully my "dinner" didnt destroy me.
the reason why dinner is in quotes is because i cheated the diet. i hope it doesnt hurt me!

6 more days to go.
although today wasnt perfect, it was alright.

Most people lose 7-15lb in the 7-10 days that they do this diet. wish me luck!

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just checked my weight after using the bathroom.
70.6kgs right now (but i also drank alot!).--not alcohol
soooo i imagine ill be 69.8-70.2 kgs tomorrow morning.

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just ate another small strawberry
and raw cabbage with some sauce (20cals per tbs)

i stopped caring and...

hey! i made a new diet,but i just didnt go through with it because im lazy and always busy.
So heres the thing,i havnt been counting calories at all, and i lost weight!
3/8: 70kg
3/9:69.8kg
3/11: 69.8 kg
3/13: 69.6 kg
3/14: 69.4 kg
3/15: 69.4 kg

ill be stunned it i get to 68 and keep it there. ive only been 68kgs for a day,and only a day.

well,i hope this all works out. i didnt even eat anything healthy yester day. i had:
2 sweet and salty peanut butter bars (340)
1 muffin (120)
cereal (120)
2 pepperoni pizza slices (648)

total=1228 cals

and when i woke up today,i was the same weight! awesome

abc 2

day two.
day 1= 600/500 OVER 100 [70.2kg]
day 2=729/500 OVER 233 [70kg]

reason: i havnt exercised in like a week due to school.
its throwing me off.
butttt my body looks thinner,feels lighter.
so whats happening?

i keep on forgetting to C&S junk food.
i ate chips today,regret
omelet-dont really regret.filling
fruits-no regret
chocolates-kinda regret
bread- dont really regret
not working out-REGRET.

damn all my tests and exams

fuck it. new thing

i gained .2 yesterday.
damn those cookies.
i need something to restrict me.
i guess ill do abc, but for a little over 20days instead of 50.
but what about the fast days?i dont know if i can make it.
and also,the calories, if the day is 300 cals, can i eat 500 and burn 200 of must it just be 300cals consumed?
i need answers.

and the weekends? im usually out,and when im out, i eat alot with friends-WHAT TO DO?
day1: 500 calories(or less)
day2: 500 calories(or less)
3:300 calories
4:400 calories
5: 100 calories
6: 200 calories
7: 300 calories
8: 400 calories
9: 500 calories
10: fast
11: 150 calories
12: 200 calories
13: 400 calories
14: 350 calories
15: 250 calories
16: 200 calories
17: fast
18: 200 calories
19: 100 calories
20: fast
21: 300 calories
22: 250 calories
23: 200 calories
24: 150 calories
25: 100 calories
26: 50 calories
27: 100 calories
28: 200 calories
29: 200 calories
30: 300 calories
31: 800
32: fast
33: 250 calories
34: 350 calories
35: 450 calories
36: fast
37: 500 calories
38: 450 calories
39: 400 calories
40: 350 calories
41: 300 calories
42: 250 calories
43: 200 calories
44: 200 calories
45: 250 calories
46: 200 calories
47: 300 calories
48: 200 calories
49: 150 calories
50: fast

ive fasted for one day before, and the least ive ever had before was 300 cals.


but today is ABC 1,
limit:500
total consumed:300

its only 12 in the noon.
so lets see if i can make it.
if i can make it to the 11th day (1st day after fast)-ill go through with it.
i cant afford failures. i was supposed to loose 5lbs in a week,did i ?NO. BULLSHIT.
so by next monday,10lbs better be off,OR ELSE.


well okay,idk "OR ELSE"
but still.
:/
________________________
ill also be adding on things "___" being a barrier.
i just googled the abc diet,like risks and etc. i feel like if a do it,once i start eating again,ill gain it ALL back.
has anyone here gone through with it?

this is just.uggh

even a girl at my school is a model. she looks like crap in person, but when shes dolled up, she looks good. shes a size 2!

this is really annoying.
my goal: 20lbs in 4weeks,
today: day 5. i was supposed to have dropped 5 lbs, have i?NO. because i binged HORRIBLY on thursday. so yesterday i was .2kgs more than i started. i worked hard ysterday and that pound that i gained on thursday. so basically,ive only lost a pound in a week-which is= healthy,but not my goal. but week one is NOT over. today i saturday, i have until monday to loose 5 lbs. the only way is to either:
-have a net intake of 51cals a day
OR
-fast for 2 days -which is impossible for me.

so half of the day, ill live of of lemon water.

BUT
i just ate 2 cookies(410 cals each) and a plum (30 cals-YUM!)
puts me at 440cals. but ill haning out with a friend so ill be active and burn it.
ill try to live off of plums since theyre so low cal and tasty

WISH ME LUCK*

I have found the fountain of thin and i have tasted its greatness.

I FOUND IT.
the secret to successful dieting and thinness:
A buddy.

This buddy needs to be pro-ana too,they need to be in that condition, on the struggle to perfection. let them be a texting buddy, its like theyre there at all times. i think texting buddies would be the most effective, esp. one that lives far, that way theres no worry in the whole school knowing about your ed.

I found mine, her name is dee. starting on the 1st of march, i decided,this is the time. In 1 month, i want 20lbs GONE. Today was failure though, because i binged,BECAUSE I DIDNT TEXT HER. btw, shes my texting buddy. we live VERY far.

in lbs.. (these are my weights in the morning)


3/1/10: 154.4
3/2/10: 153.1
3/3/10: 152.7

Obviously, March 1st to March 2nd has the highest decrease, I DIDNT BINGE,andddd my texting buddy helped me resist bad snacking!
this is what i ate on march 1st.
muffin (176cal)
apple(77cal)
cheese(70cal)
tea(0 cal)
1/4 of a pear (26 cal)
asian soup (30cal)
1/8 cup cashews (98 cal)
1/8 lemon (2cal)
plum (30cal)

exercise: run, (burn 168 cal).
NET CAL=345 CALS.

She saved me from eating about 200+ that day.


Alright, now that you know you need a buddy, how do you find one?
A great place are proana networks.
A really good one is prettythin.com
Prettythin also has similar sites that are linked to it. Theres also member photos, member forms, thinsporation pics, and so much more! i love it!

Discovery

ive been gone FOREVER! and im soooo sorry.
update:
2/17 : 71.2 kg
2/18: 70.4
2/19: 70.2
2/20: 69.4
2/21: 69.2

so basically, i took a HUGE step backwards, and now im loosing weight! but i just ate some pizza, so i need to give up on being around 68.6 tomorrow morning :(

How i did it:
EAT HEALTHY,AS IN WHOLE FOODS!
Also, reading "fitness magazine" REALLY HELPS.
My basic day:
Breakfast: 1 scrambled egg, orange
Snacks: carrots
Lunch: a piece of fruit (like an apple)
Snack: Fruit
Dinner: small thick/solid foods (like 6 chicken nuggets, or a soup)

and i never felt like "ohh im soooo hungry".
My dream of becoming a size 5 by march wont come true (unless i crash diet-which i hope not to do,its too painful). I might be able to make it to a size 7 by march. I'm going to continue doing this and fill you in.

ANNDDD. if youre tired of hearing people "more fruit and veggies"-when you LOVE sweets, try:
carrots
grapes
plums
apricots
nectarines
strawberries
watermelons

My eating habits are so much healthier now. I have maybe a sip of soda everyweek. I eat more whole foods, and im loosing weight with it,im so happy!

oh coffee, you are so amazing

coffee made my scale say i weighed less!

1/3: 71.2kgs- no coffee

1/5: (weight not recorded)coffee

1/6: 70.6 coffee

1/7: 70.2 coffee

1/8 69.6 coffee

1/9 69.2 (no coffee)

1/10: 69.6 (no coffee. GAINED)

1/11: 70 (GAINED)

1/12 coffee. weight not recored. ate ALOT of junk greasy food

1/13: 69.6 kg <-Wednesday

by saturday, i want to be 68.6

my goal on my calender is loose 1kg every 7 days, which is 2.2 lbs a week.

"healthy" would be 2lbs a week.

i will never go all crazy with the junk food again, it destroyed me.

drinking coffee makes me eat healthier- like eating fruits, veggies, etc, and my hunger is curved.

when i dont, i eat ALOT.

i wish i had an ana texting buddy :[

well,somethings changed

eating healthier.

i have thinspo quotes and pics and my ipod

im still a size 9/10-which ive been for a couple years...

but by march,i WILL BE A DAMN SIZE 5.

bought a detox pack and water pills, then it sais "not intended for persons 18 and younger". DAMN!!!! Got 'dieters tea', its not for 12 and under so i can use it.

bought alot of coffee.

im 16, i weigh(currently) 155lbs-yeah the break made me gain-and im 5'8. I'd consider it adult, but idk. Ill be 17 in a few months. I dont want to ask a doctor b/c my parents would be there and they'd wonder why im doing this. What should i do? I dont want to take the pills of cleanse if it risks my life. Theres no point in being thin if you're gonna die shortly after. HELP PLEASE.